So.. funny story.
I often look at Apache Grace when she gets at the other end of the couch, so far away from me, and i giggle because she makes me think of me.
Sometimes I would get comfortable at the other end of the couch and Derek would ask me to come lay on his lap and I thought I was so comfortable I didn’t want to move….
Until he tickled my feet or looked at me with those eyes and smile that said everything… just everything!
Tonight as I giggle, my heart was reminded of how every single time, I moved.
His lap or his shoulder or his chest was the most comfortable place in the entire world….
Gosh PSA….
let me just say how much I miss him.
Heaven is real…
On earth as in heaven is sustaining….
but even still. (U know… even in the evens)
This heart misses him this side of heaven.
There are no words for it for sure.
But praise God for Jeremiah 33:3….
Jesus is in the details….
The very most intricate intimate details…. Long before we ever knew…
Now I’m singing keeper of the stars…. Just God. Period!
Anyway. Welcome to my rambling brain…..
Tonight…. As I look at her down there, trying my best to get her to come to me and lay with me without her budging and chosing to stay down there alone…. (Thank God I never let my lazy win and i always moved lol) she didnt move….
But I think about the heart of the One calling us to come move…
To get out of our comfort zones and step out to the unknown. More than the unknown…. The unimaginable! The unthinkable. The true BIGGER picture.
I think about the One that’s longing for us to just move to come to the place where He knows we are safe ane never alone.
The place we are safe.
Safe…..
The place He knows is home.
The place where everything else in the world just disappears….
The arms of the Savior….
The shoulder of the One that can carry it all and it’s easy and light.
The One that His very heart beat, gives us life.
True purpose. True Love.
Gosh….. gosh…. Seems to be all I can say tonight.
Even to this heart.
Gosh how God must feel everything we don’t move…
But you know… thank God He don’t move either.
He never leaves us. He never turns His back on us. He never grumbles or complains. He just reaches out His hand and places it on our backs to we know…. He’s still right there.
Never leaving…
(I’ll post a song 🎧 n the comments if you want to take just 5 minutes and get alone with Him and just be..)
I’m reminded of John…. (God is Gracious.) a name I’ve been praying over for months….
A name God keeps highlighting…
John.. the One Jesus Loves….
Is how He’s described in the Bible….
Do you know, HE IS YOU?
He loves you and longs for you to lean back into Him.
No matter what it looks like…
Jesus, in the middle of revealing someone was going to betray Him… (still hoping He would “change his mind” never loving him any less by the way) in the middle of uncertainty, confusion, and unknown and yes, the unimaginable… someone betraying Jesus….just wow)
John is there. Leaning into Him…. Even in all these evens….
The Word says it like this…
“The disciple Jesus loved was sitting next to Jesus at the table.”
John 13:23 NLT
“The disciple that Jesus dearly loved was at the right of him at the table and was leaning his head on Jesus.”
John 13:23 TPT
“The disciples looked around at one another, wondering who on earth he was talking about. One of the disciples, the one Jesus loved dearly, was reclining against him, his head on his shoulder. Peter motioned to him to ask who Jesus might be talking about. So, being the closest, he said, “Master, who?””
John 13:22-25 MSG
They even knew how close John was to Jesus so they told him to ask who…..
Anyway…..
The point is……
As the One Jesus Loves….. move….
Love Him back.
We are called to get uncomfortable.
We are even called into the evens….
I didn’t asked to be a widow…. (As the world defines) I was Called….
Derek didn’t ask to go meet Jesus that day…
He was called….
And we moved…
As One into One..
Leaning into all that God is calling us to…
This side of Heaven and that side too.
Still One purpose…
So…. Saying all that to say.
I know it’s easy to get comfortable in a place..
It’s easy to not want to move..
It’s easy to “act asleep” as in ignore God…
But when we move… there is so much more…..
So so sweet what Apache Girl can do to this heart when she won’t move…..
While I was in the middle of writing this. Our son came down for Good night cuddles and she wanted to play for a minute and we all 3 had a moment of Love and making memories together….
Love…. Love Lives!
Love remains!
Get up and move…
Get uncomfortable in your calling.
Take a leap of faith.
And know…
You are so safe when you lean into Him…..
