Today was a good day.
A week after 2/23/2024
We had some visitors at the house. For the life of me I can not remember who it was but their words resound in my ears today.
“It’s ok to have a good day. Don’t feel guilty when you have a good day. He wants you to have a good day.
Please know, it’s ok to have a good day. And don’t feel guilty about it. Okay?”
“Yes ma’am,” I said.
Today was a good day.
So I have to share a little back drop.
For our last 18 years of marriage minus a few months around September 2015, we made date nights priority.
Always make date nights a priority!
I always tried to be extra. If I could I got a new outfit. Or a new shirt at least. It never fails, I come out of the bathroom and I get a whistle 😙
Never fails.
Always a big ole grin and a loud whistle followed by a big ole hug and a kiss.
I do have to say, the last year or so, Derek was home more or got to work in Columbus and every morning I got a whistle. Didn’t matter what I was wearing. Old or new.
So this weekend on our family vacation, we went clothes shopping like we always do.
I walked in Maurice’s and seen the cutest dress and my 1st sound in my voice was his whistle and the 1st flash in my mind was his glowing eyes and that handsome smile.
So guess what I did. I bought it. Our anniversary is this weekend. And we are going to celebrate.
Life.
Love.
Redemption.
Restoration.
Wholeness.
Becoming One Heart.
Remaining One Heart.
So I bought it.
This morning I looked at it in the closet and I heard him again. Whistle and seen that handsome smile and those glowing eyes.
And let me just say. I already felt God, my handsome hero, and all of heaven all around me before I ever opened my eyes this morning.
I got out of bed praying.
So by time I made it to the closet. My heart was already on cloud 9.
Today was a good day.
So I said ok. Let’s do this.
And I was extra today.
Gosh it feels like a hot minute since I was extra.
I absolutely love dressing up.
Can’t even explain it but I do. Military balls. My favorite date nights :):) jk they are all my favorite but I loved getting to be extra extra fancy. All because He made me feel like the only person in the room 🙂
So I leave.
Get to work.
About 11, our sweet princess FaceTimes me.
And the 1st thing out of her mouth was oh momma you look pretty today. My heart skipped a beat and I even got butterflies.
I get ready to go home and a have a beautiful little happy in my car from her with the most beautiful encouraging note… At this point I didn’t even know cloud 9 x whatever was even possible.
I told her her daddy was shining through her today to lift my heart.
Wooing me from heaven.
Only God.
I go pick Grayson up from a friends house and the 1st thing he says is “Momma where did you get that dress.?” I. Ask him was that his way of saying it was pretty and he said yes. These babies are their daddies heart for sure.
And let me add here. It’s not the new outfit, or the little happy, it’s the thought, the action, the hope, the love, the safety, the protection, the I see you behind every little moment.
I see you….
And this takes me back to those glowing eyes.
When Derek looks at me, I see a glimpse of who I am. Through His eyes…
And this kind of “seeing” only comes from a Love like no other.
Our saviors..
The kind of Love I felt from him is the kind of Love that lays down one’s life for the other. And trust me. This Love was reciprocated.
As today has been a good day and I have seen and heard my baby all around me I am reminded of a moment I couldn’t see myself in his eyes.
I was lost, afraid, full of shame, embarrassed, broken, full of hurt and pain and grief.
A different kind of grief tho….
Not a grief that pulls you and draws you closer to Jesus but the spirit of grief that destroys your very core. Your very spirit.
Oh the lies the enemy spoke to me…
Yes a crazy moment to remember today but i remembered from a place of gratitude and this Word from the Lord.
“You are all together beautiful and there is no flaw in you. With one look in your eyes, I come undone.”
When the Lord started speaking to my darkness and lies started falling off and walls started coming day…. Everything shifted.
When God started talking to me and I started listening, I could see myself in Derek’s eyes again.
Oh my friend, everything shifted when I started listening to God.
Becoming One heart has absolutely been the greatest journey of our life.
And now, remaining One Heart is our new journey.
Today was a good day.
I had to share all of that because
- I want you to know it’s ok to have a good day.
- I want you to know where this kind of Love comes from.
We are not perfect but we have a Perfect Love.
Our story is a lot like One in the Bible but not the one you would think.
In our growth with the Lord you could say we went from Adam and Eve, to Hosea and Gomer, to Ruth and Boaz, to Jesus and Mary Magdalene. Kinda kidding about Mary and Jesus but if there was a time Jesus could be married I’m convinced it would be her, but instead. He chose you.
You hear that.
He chose you.
You are His bride.
Created to be spotless and holy. Without blemish.
This is all scripture. You don’t have to take my word for it. Please seek Him.
He sees you right where you are.
And He wants you to know how much He loves you.
Yall know I love my hard days. Because they point me to Him.
I try with everything in me, to point out babies to Him too.
And even on the good extra days, they point to Him.
You have a purpose.
You are so important.
You are His beloved.
But you got to let Him speak to your heart. And let Him tare down those walls.
And let Him be all He longs to be to you.
And if you are walking in anything similar like we are walking in, it’s ok to have a good day.
I love you sweet sweet friend, and God loves you even more.
Ps. Today.. today I felt every bit of this Word from both my Hero’s.
And I don’t just want to share with you the hard days or the “beautiful journey” days but the good days too. And
Today was a good day.
“You are beautiful, my darling, beautiful beyond words. Your eyes are like doves behind your veil. Your hair falls in waves, like a flock of goats winding down the slopes of Gilead. You are altogether beautiful, my darling, beautiful in every way. You have captured my heart, my treasure, my bride. You hold it hostage with one glance of your eyes, with a single jewel of your necklace. Your love delights me, my treasure, my bride. Your love is better than wine, your perfume more fragrant than spices. Awake, north wind! Rise up, south wind! Blow on my garden and spread its fragrance all around. Come into your garden, my love; taste its finest fruits.”
Song of Songs 4:1, 7, 9-10, 16 NLT
