“What you want for supper tomorrow sister?”
“Chili.” Bre said.
As I heard the word, my heart skipped a few beats.
As you know, I keep up with all our “firsts” that are not the normal firsts.
This is one of them.
It pulled these heart strings..
Chili is our family favorite.
And it’s also our meal that we get to make soooo much of and invite everyone over for birthday party’s after church meals etc.
It’s Bre’s absolute favorite.
I’ll never forget when she was little, we asked what she wanted for her birthday party. She wanted to make everyone chili. So they could have it because it’s so good. She wanted to share.
And that’s the moment it became our family tradition.
(Ps, little did she know it was my favorite growing up too. Always loved when mom and dad and maw fixed it. Still do. :))
I went to Walmart Tuesday and got all the stuff. I made it through the store without bursting into tears as this heart just continued to beat out of my chest.
I get home and I’m getting it all together and I have Bre help me.
I step back and smile because, look at us, doing the things.
Even in the evens.
Doing all the things.
Not skipping a beat even though our hearts sure were.
As I was stirring I was praying.
Lord, help me.
Help us.
We love you with all our hearts.
I love you.
My kids love you.
Derek loves you.
Our family loves you.
Help us.
Just a whisper as I stir.
I promise you…
I felt him. And it was like he walked right up to that chili bowl behind me and took my spoon and tasted it and added a little more ghost pepper. (Everyone thinks I’m the one that makes it spicy… 🌶️)
And then I heard the Lord.
You have tasted me and you know I’m good.
And of course this takes me to the scripture….
“For the angel of the Lord is a guard; he surrounds and defends all who fear him. Taste and see that the Lord is good. Oh, the joys of those who take refuge in him! Fear the Lord, you his godly people, for those who fear him will have all they need. Even strong young lions sometimes go hungry, but those who trust in the Lord will lack no good thing. Come, my children, and listen to me, and I will teach you to fear the Lord.”
Psalms 34:7-11 NLT
Fearing the Lord is respect, honor, reverence, worship.
Even in the evens.
Seeking Him.
Even in the evens.
Turning to Him for comfort.
Even in the evens.
Letting Him love you back.
Even in the evens.
I can’t imagine not fearing the Lord.
I can’t imagine where we would be without Him.
All who trust in Him will lack no good thing. Ohhh how He provides good things.
He is the Good Thing.
Filling your heart with overflowing love in a moment where you are missing everything about love as you know it.
Overflowing Love.
Even in the evens.
Friend.
Sweet sweet friend.
There are gonna be hard days.
Hard weeks.
Hard moments that take your breathe away.
Make your heart skip beats and even pound out of your chest where you think you want get past that moment because is so hard.
But….
Because we trust Him.
We lack no good thing.
Even if that Good Thing borrows your spoon for a taste and adds pepper to already spicy chili. 🙂
God is so good.
He knows best.
And He knows the way to our hearts.
Even in the evens.
I pray for you to know God like this. Even more deeper and intimate than ever before.
We do make some good chili.
💙🪽🌶️🦋💜
Thank you Breanna Abbott.
Living for moments like this.
Just Jesus.
Ps. Chili night turned into burn cookies and movie night with all of us.
And we laughed til we hurt over some burnt cookies and maybe a little gas too..
Family.
Better together.
Overflowing Love.
Loving to live and living to Love.
I love our babies.
