I come alive loving you.

I know I have shared it 100 times but when my heart is feeling some type of way. It starts singing this song.

May I love your presence. More than any gift you’ve giving me.

I come alive loving you.

Two lyrics that my heart prays tonight as I whisper…

I’m scared.

Have you ever been scared?

Not frightened or terrified.
Not in the way that is meant to bring darkness or anything like that.

More just a.

Lord I need you, im scared kinda thing where you just need the comfort of His arms and His hug. Where you just need the tangible presence of His peace knowing that your safe no matter what.
Not real sure why. You just know you need Him.

I sit here tonight and as I think about it.
I think this kind of scared is ok.
This kind of scared shows our need for Jesus. This kind of scared shows our weakness and frailty and and His perfect strength. This kind of scared allows Him to come in and be our protector, our guardian, our Hero, our safe place.

Even if.
Even when.
Even now.

Even if I don’t know what my heart is needed, God does, and He is right there. Even if I’m scared, He is my strong tower. My safe place. Even if. He is the wings around my being.

Even when I know exactly what my hearts longing for and I admit it in the moments of vulnerability and rawness of the feeling of being scared. He is there. Never changing. Never leaving. Always holding. Always embracing. Always reaching out His strong arm to save me.

Even now in the middle of complete pain He is the peace that comes in and calms this ache. Even now in the middle of such brokenness, He is the one that keeps me whole. Even now in this place of being so uncomfortable and lost, He is my comforter and He guides me.

Even if.
Even when.
Even now.

He is the constant.
And my faith is all I have.
In the highs. And in the Lows.

He is the steadfast and keeps me immovable.
All because this heart….
Longs to love His presence. More than any gift He’s given me.
Because I come alive Loving Him.

Ahhh Heaven on Earth tonight as my heart seeks in this even if, even when, even now moment.

Sweet friend.

He’s your answer. No matter the problem. No matter the pain. No matter the happy. No matter the peace. No matter what circumstances you are in.
He.
Is.
The.
Answer.

2nd Corinthians 12:9