The 23rd, 2024- I woke up to a “good morning beautiful” text from my handsome baby.
Breathing the very same air I’ve always breathe in. With Him.
I went about my day.
Even grabbed a flag for his final flight, and our handsome son and sweet niece even googled how to fold it properly for him, as our sweet princes daughter drove us around.
I even got a sweet kiss and a big tight slow down hug about lunch that day.
The 24th, on the other hand…
for a moment I froze..
For a moment everything stood still.
For a moment I couldn’t breathe.
For a moment all I could hear was my pounding heart….
The 1st day I woke up in this world and my husband wasn’t in it..
the 1st day i woke up to a world where my husband wasn’t breathing the very same air I was.
The 1st day i woke up and my husband had moved in with Jesus.
I was supposed to feel sad.
But instead i felt Greater Love.
I was supposed to feel so lost but yet somehow i had never felt so found.
I was supposed to be shocked but yet i was at a peace i never dreamed to understand but could feel from the inside out.
I was supposed to feel distant but yet i have never felt so close to him and his amazing touch and smile.
I was supposed to feel upset but yet somehow pure comfort wrapped around me like a blanket, a robe, cozy and cuddly.
I was supposed to fall… but yet I have never felt something so strong coming from inside of me, holding me up.
Sustaining me.
My husband woke up next to Jesus. He took his last breathe here on earth only to breathe His 1st there. In Heaven. Where eternity awaits us.
I can’t even begin to express the amazement in my heart as I begin to live life that day with my very heart in heaven.
Heaven, already so important to me, already holding so many special people dear to my heart but it’s something different when the very one God created for you, the one He created to be One with, is standing next to Jesus. Breathing His same air…
Life here, changes.
Life here, becomes complete Heaven on Earth…
As I begin to truly experience what He was experiencing… sweet glimpses.
Sweet smells.
Sweet visions.
Sweet touches.
On Earth as in Heaven.
🙏🏻
Surrender…. Just surrender.
