I packed today.
Normally I have my 6-7 little outfits laying beside his big suitcase and our beach picture clothes all ready and he does the rest.
Nothing out of the normal tonight.
I packed today.
As I went to get the wagon that Austin reminded me to grab I realized I haven’t thought about any of this at all. Then I realized.
I packed today..
Starting to get focused on what I didn’t have in that moment, my heart grew so heavy and I felt my spirit down cast and then I looked up and said “stop it!! Stop looking at this view and look where I’m supposed to.”
I had a moment.
I felt it.
It had been coming all day and I had been pushing it back but couldn’t any more.
And then I adjusted my perspective. I spoke truth. I let God come in and speak to those hurting pieces.
And then here come Grayson and Hunter come to the rescue and..
We packed today.
As I was loading the car I could feel a peace and the wind blew and I knew it was ok.
Then I heard Grayson tell Hunter.
“We don’t know what we are doing. Daddy always does this.”
And as he looked at me to make sure I was ok, I think he knew I wasn’t.
I had to turn away for a minute. Take a deep breathe ask God to help me and then walked to the back of the car.
As we were packing, we were stacking just like daddy does. Moving this around, putting this in that spot, laying this on top and together, like always…
We packed today.
Our family vacation is here.
And so is my handsome hero and their amazing daddy. This world is temporary. But heaven, heaven is for all eternity. And because I know my God and I know His heart, and His very Word says… here on Earth as in Heaven…
We are not defined nor are we called to live by our circumstances.
God has such amazing plans in store. I don’t have to see into tomorrow to know that. I’ll believe it today and wait patiently for what tomorrow bring. Because we are His.
Because there is a Heaven.
Because Jesus lives.
I know it’s going to be good.
I went in the bathroom during all this to take a breathe and Breanna’s scripture grabbed my heart and just wrapped me up. (Derek and the kids had me these scripture pages from the Bible of all our favorite scriptures framed and we hung them there. Look at Heaven coming in reminding me everything is gonna be ok. Even in the hard moments.)
And this is why I share. So maybe you will find hope in the middle of what the world wants you to call hopeless.
Refuse to entertain that hopelessness.
“Yet, in spite of all this, I still belong to you; you hold me by my right hand. You lead me with your secret wisdom. And following you brings me into your brightness and glory! Whom have I in heaven but you? You’re all I want! No one on earth means as much to me as you. Lord, so many times I fail; I fall into disgrace. But when I trust in you, I have a strong and glorious presence protecting and anointing me. Forever you’re all I need!”
Psalms 73:23-26 TPT
“My flesh and my heart fail; But God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.”
Psalms 73:26 NKJV
